"Never take someone for granted. Hold every person close to your heart because you might wake up one day and realize that you’ve lost a diamond while you’re busy collecting stones."

When i think it over again..
Somehow i regret, but i don't regret that you came and make something happened to me in the past.
I regret that it affects me so much in the present.
I know it's my fault.
I even can't find the words to describe how i feel.
I've anticipated it before..
long ago since the first time I started to recognize you.
Well, is it so hard to stay the same.
If I meant nothing to you then let it be.
I don't like changes, just like I hate it when you change.
If only you knew that one day you'd change, will you treat me that way?
Why don't we just be friends from the start?

You used to be my reason to wake up with a big smile every morning.
Reason for me to not turning off my alarm.
Reason for me to learn everything in the way they should be learned.
Reason for me to always have my lunch *this is stupid

I like your stupid face.
I like your stupid attitude.
I like your stupid smile which happens for no reason.
I like the way you look at me.
I like your stupid jokes.
I like your talkative mouth which never praise me and always say bad things about me.
After all, I like that you're actually smarter than your stupid look.

I did what you like.
I told you things that you willing to hear.
I told you jokes that you'd laugh at when you heard them.
I've tried so hard to get used to you.
and now I do.
but guess what, I've lost a friend like you :(
Are you making a sweet escape?
This ain't a real farewell i guess, you're just blocking yourself :)
while I'm not expecting more than friendship, you assumed that I am..
And I'm making another stupid mistake like I used to do..
You're may favorite mistake anyway.
Hello goodbye my friend.

"Sometimes despite all your best choices and all your good intentions, fate wins."

I've been concerning about something for so long..

you might take it as I'm flinging around, well I'm not..
I just don't want to get hurt for don't-know-how-many-times :)

So many things distract my attention, till it takes my time away..
There is also one reason why i stopped blogging for several weeks, or maybe months..
This blog way too expressive I guess, well sorry for being so rude around here..

meeting so many people somehow open up my eyes..
Yet i still can't see clearly, my eyes kinda blur :p
Sometimes something just happened the way you afraid it will be..
And here i go with the same old stories..
You came, you stopped by and then you went away..
That's the way people come into your life..

"People are trying to correct their lives trying to fit everything right, trying not to be wrong again. But we must remember that being wrong sometimes makes us a better person." ~Unknown

Despite all,
In our world of wrong choices, someday, someone will come into your world that make you say, "This time, I got it right."

Well, can you read this?
It says "Don't fall in love BLINDLY"
Once you fall, you need back up ;)

I guess, I've been absent for so long..
well, this blog is really such a dead blog.. :(

The more your eyes are trying to see..
the more you want to know..
for me, the more things i want to ask..
but i keep my mouth shut and wondering..
and the less i know..

meeting someone, making new friends, take a break from your past memories is a quite good thing to enjoy.
but in fact it won't last long unless your present time can cover it all :)

Hello readers :)

well, I'm waiting for my teacher while writing this post..
The lesson haven't started yet..
Internet, web, and multimedia class actually.
and suddenly something cross my mind so i write it up..
I want the time flows faster, but in the other way around I want the clock to tick slower every second of it..
such a confusing thing.. -_-"

"I'm scared that you'll end up being everything that i wanted. i know it seems confusing but i just don't wanna get hurt"
- unknown source

well, i got this from my friend Claudia Henlly Phankova :)
She knows exactly what i feel.. LOL

"I'm so scared that i will want to love you forever and you will want me only for a few moments in your life."
-unknown source

Well, i guess i got something ;)

So sorry, this blog kinda dead lately..
i'll come back frequently for sure, but i don't know how often it will be..

Some quote for today :
"Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
No, Do you know the real reason why you're scared? Maybe it's cause you wanna be with that someone too."

Again,..
another cliche quote..
i bet you have ever heard this before..
maybe for so many times..

"Enjoy yourself.
These are the good old days you're going to miss in the years ahead."
- unknown author

I was going through so many things this past few days..
Things that make me realize that this world is so wide yet it is so small in the other way around.
Things that make me see that life is not really that worst.
Things that make me finally try to grow up, try to move one, try to pursue new things :)
In fact, it was great..

Today,
i feel it as the best moment i have ever had after my recover..
Hope you feel the same way too..
Smile..
Wish you a nice weekend, readers :)

Anyway,
Happy HAlloween !! B0ooooo~

Heyhoo, Long time no see..

I was having a really extraordinary study tour ever..
I met a lot of new friend..
Smile, laugh, telling jokes together and making friends..
And i love it that way :)
we spent our whole day together, whole night till midnight and woke each other up the next day..
share breakfast, lunch and dinner in one table.
such a memorable scene..
We shop together, boys and girls seem like having a same habit : shop till drop(!)
I met new friends and some of my old friends too..
I bet all of us were having a good time there..
This world ain't so big, smaller than you can imagine..

About my feelings, all i can tell is I'm extremely happy.. ;) *yay!

There are so many story to tell..
and i'll keep it as a chapter in a book of my life ;)
And we experience so many kinds of feeling too..
Maybe that was the way God want us to meet each other..
and I thank Him for doing so..

And something start to spark again......

Last but not least, a simple quote for you..

"You can’t make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."
- unknown author

"Some have a lifetime, some just a day.
Love isn't something you measure that way.
Nothings ever forever.Forever is a lie.
All we have is between hello and goodbye."
-Unknown

All I want is not forever, only a lifetime..
Perhaps it's enough for me to live up my life. :)

* I don't know why something should came and screwed up my everything,
and suddenly just left me with nothing.. I'm wondering why, maybe it's God's plan..
well, who knows? ;)

by crazyArtist121 @ deviantart

“One must have a good memory to be able to keep the promises that one makes”
- Friedrich Nietzsche

There's something i am afraid about promises, that they are not kept cause i believed it.
Actually I got some promises right now, but I don't know whether it will really happens or not.

I used to have million promises with someone in the past.
Don't know if that person still remember it or not.
now a broken promise is just like a debt unpaid.
“Promises are like the full moon, if they are not kept at once they diminish day by day”
I had so many wishes that someone turned it into a promise to me,
but what i got is just nothing.
Well, suddenly I'm afraid that it will happen again..
But if I really don't deserve to have so many wishes, just promise to grant me one.
which is : A promise of yes that does not turn to no..
and I will be just fine.. :)

"Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change
Do you think how it would have been sometimes?
Do you pray that I'd never left your side?
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back,would you still be mine?
'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind.."
- Kate Winslet

I heard this song on the radio, on my way to my teacher's house this morning..
Some of these words stab right to my heart :)
I ever wondered this way too, but I've never got the answer..
Sometimes it's good to left some answer unspoken..
Maybe it's time to grow up..

All things that I'd really like to say is :
"Wish you the best
And I wish you nothing less than every thing you've ever dreamed of
And I hope that you find love along the way
And by then, maybe I'll understand why you had to leave
And yes I know we've been through this a thousand times" :)
** taken from Brad Paisley's song

Sometimes a song can reflects feelings, am I right?

p.s: happy mooncake festival everyone!!
yes, i love mooncake.. especially double egg ;P

I hope the "somewhere" coming soon too me :)
Cause a little smile is all i got now, I'm afraid it will fade soon..

“Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired.”
-Mother Teresa of Calcutta

good evening readers :)

My mind keep recalling my past memories..
Some of them are sweet memories, i got the bitter ones too :)

I've been thinking of posting this thing for a week,
and finally i post it today..

I miss my friendsssssss(!)
Wherever you are, you're always in my thoughts..
We used to spend almost everything together..
maybe we're not so close in distance right now..
Some of us stay in our beloved hometown, some of you are away.
I bet when we meet again someday, it's nice to recall all the memories.
When we spent our break time together,
when we skipped school *LOL ,
when we argue,
when we share our stories,
when we made jokes on each other,
when we hang-out together,
when we cheer each other up in our bad times,
and... too many to write it all ;)
So many ordinary things we did in our special ways.
You all mean a lot to me.
I'm glad that God let us met each other.

Here are some pictures ;) *wink







































And so many friends that i don't have their pictures :(

miss you all~

This is the second time I post something from my phone..
Good morning readers!!
Don't know why, but I can't sleep today.
If my mom finds out, she's going to yell at me.. -_-"
I got so many things on my mind.
I even don't have any reason why I should think about all of this.
I hate that I can't lie about my feelings.
Just like a cough, you can't hide it.

I'm afraid,
We used to share every stories.
About me or you, there's nothing about us anyway.
But we keep sharing, happy or even sad stories.
You are counted as the first person I'll think of.
I feel comfort to share all of those matters.
But why I feel you're so far away right now?
Have I lost you?
Don't you know I'm talking about you?

There's a place where it all begins ...

“Our Similarities bring us to a common ground;
Our differences allow us to be fascinated by each other”
- Tom Robbins

When i realize something,
I wonder..
Do you realize something that I've just realized ?
Somehow, I wish nothing will ever change.

I like the way you treat me well..
The way you tell me jokes..
When you can calm me down..
When you can make me laugh in my very-bad-day..
and you stop me from crying..
I like it that way..
Somehow, I hate it when you make me think I'm special..
Cause in fact maybe I'm not, maybe you're just trying to be nice.

Lately, I miss all those things..

Please don't ever change :)
Just left it unsaid..

...but it seems there is no ending.

Suddenly i like this song : Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls

Good for broken hearted people, better for people who's trying to let go, best for people who think nothing ;)

Ohh(!) Wonderful Saturday Night is waiting..
Have love everywhere readers~~

I was browsing for few hours before and I found this story..

The Rib - God's Message to Men and Women
- copyright www.thinkingagain.com

"When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils.

But you woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.

Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life.

I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully.

Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart.

His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.

You are my perfect angel. You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtue in your heart. Your eyes - don't change them. Your lips - how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose so perfect in form your hands so gentle to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep; I've held your heart close to mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like me. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you: my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are the extension of me.

Man represents my image - woman, my emotions. Together, you represent totality of God. So man - treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me.

What you do to her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, the heart of your Father and the heart of her Father.

Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self."

Interesting to read.. well, for me it's interesting :)

Goodnight readers~

Surely there's nothing certain..
One thing we can be sure of is ; living things will die someday..

No one never doubt anything right?

"The only thing that makes life possible is permanent, intolerable uncertainty; not knowing what comes next."
Ursula K. LeGuin

Wishing someone a safe flight :)
goodnight~

"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it."
- Unknown Author

Well, past is past..
But without past, there's no today and there'll be no tomorrow..
However, devil may have ruined our past but God always have a good plans for our future.. :)

Have a great weekdays readers~

Do we need to change?
Maybe yes, maybe no..
I would love to have something that always remain the same,you.
If one day you do change, nothing can change what we ever had.

We know we can change if we really want to.
Nothing can stop people from changing.
Depends the reason why we should change.
Maybe the main reason is we're trying to escape from the past, breaking our lovely habits.
Don't we?
But i wish, we remain the same..
Not as what we are, but remain in the same state where we're standing.

And friends,
They come and go, but they never really go that far.
I keep them inside me.
Through bad and good times, i know we care for each other.
Thank you, yesterday really made me realize you care that much when i don't even care about myself.
I'll never forget that.
We'll never change, we're friends forever.

p.s : Thank you for someone who has being so nice to my mom, great dinner :)

I'm fully agree with this statement :)
When you don't know it's love, it's better..
You enjoy every single moment with joy,
loving each other in every wonderful way and you know nothing else.
Can i repeat those time once again?
If you ever feel this way, you'll know what I mean..

I think sometimes I could write on forever,
then others I have so many emotions and thoughts,
that I can't even write one sentence.
Honestly, i didn't write a lot because of something.
My blog, my facebook, my twitter, they all look plain.
My days aren't that plain actually.
Don't you want to know why I care so much?
I just don't want to ruin a relationship out there.
I'm not that so good person, but maybe I'm numb.
That's what my friend said.. LOL
But actually,
I don't want to be hurt, that's why i won't hurt you too.

We did so many things together.
It's my memories, time that i spent with you was my time.
No one can change the past..
No one can take it away from me..
But, the more i think..
I want to save it all for just the two of us.. :)
I don;t know what those thing mean to us..
But it feels good, that's the only thing I know.

And...
I can change nothing..
Even if I can by telling you the truth, I won't.
Let it be the way it should be.
I never ask for more..

One thing I keep in my mind, Love doesn't have to have you.
And maybe someday we're going to miss this.

"You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel."
- Unknown

Hello (!)
Warm hello for you readers..
So sad that i haven't update my blog for so long.
cause I've been so busy lately..
Lot of my friends need to go soon, so i have to accompany them and some of my friends are back from abroad..
I'm having a great days with my friends right now..
I bet you're having yours too? :)

I got this saying somewhere..
I choose it as today's quotes, maybe you've ever heard it before..
"Once you love, you cannot take it back, cannot undo it. What you felt may have changed, shifted slightly, yet still remains love."
~Whitney Otto

Just like people in your life..
They come and go, some stay..
Yet you won't forget easily, each person would have left some marks in your life..
Only you the one who knows how deep it was and how long the mark could last. :)
Once you love, you'll always be the one who feels love.

Goodnight readers..
See you soon.. ^^

Helloooo!!
I've been away for a quite long period,right?..
Here I come back again :)
Long time no post,this blog is almost dead..lol
Right now,I'm on my way home from my english teacher's house..
It's raining smoothly outside..
What a perfect weather for sleeping,I guess ;)
This is the first time I post something from my cellphone..
First of all, I want to thank you for keep visiting my blog even I didn't post anything for few days..
I saw my counter keeps growing,and it really makes me happy..
Promise you that I'll really come back with lots of writing here..
Sorry for no quotes today :(
Some news, I didn't realize before that my twitter wasn't unlocked..
I've locked it few days ago,feel free to follow me to read my updates :)
That's for today..
I'll be back on track very soon..

Have a nice day readers :)

remember one thing,
“You've got to be very careful if you don't know where you're going, because you might not get there.”
-yogi berra

You don't have to know what you're doing..
But you should have known where are you heading to..
cause a goal without plan is just a wish :)

p.s :
I don't know you well, but i know the way you think about me which makes you look just like what you said about me.

Have a wonderful day as mine ;) *wink

".. the soul would have no rainbow
if the eyes had no tears."
~ part of a Native American Saying

Do you remember another quote that says live is like a roller-coaster?
That's the other meaning of this quotes..
You know that God love us so well that He will never let us down forever :)
If you are having a bad times nowadays, have a faith that the best day of your life is coming soon..
sometimes tears can bring a smile out too..
You do need rain to make a rainbow, right?
There's always a time for something to happen..
Maybe today is not your day, who knows tomorrow it is? :D
Just like me, I do ever have a worst time in my life..
But today, I'm glad that I can pass through it.
time make your life pass, so does your life pass the time..
As my most favourite quote says, “The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”, by Albert Einstein :)

Goodnight readers~

"It seems like everywhere I go
The more I see, the less I know
But I know one thing
That I love you ,I love you ,I love you ,I love you.."

"I’ve been a lot of places all around the way
I’ve seen a lot joy and I’ve seen a lot of pain
but I don’t want to write a love song for the world,
I just want to write a song about a boy and a girl
Junkies on the corner always calling my name
And the kids on the corner playing ghetto games
When I saw you getting down well I hoped it was you
And when I looked into your eyes I knew it was true."

-Michael Franti & Spearhead

One of my favourite lyrics right now..
this song stuck in my head.. lalalala :D

Well, I'm out of stories to share right now..
But i still got this good saying for you..

"Don't rush in love for it never runs out. Let love be the one to knock at your door, so by the time you start to fall, you know that your feeling is for sure."
- Unknown author

Happy Wednesday readers.
May you have a pleasant day.. :)

"Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails."
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Well, i hope I didn't make any mistake before..
I've tried not to cross the line, actually there's no line but i made it up :)
Not too close, but never too far away..
I know you know what I'm talking about..
I just want you to know one thing..
Please do your own stuff and don't put too much care on mine..
I didn't disturb you, did I? :)

I didn't say i love you well..
But we both know what happiness is, and I want you to have it.
As you always want me to have it too..
I didn't say that I'm fine..
But I'll be fine knowing you are..
And both of us will be fine.. :)

If people say "love needs sacrifice.."
I've done it..
But maybe you should say "sometimes love just ain't enough."
This is the thing that forever you'll remember,forever you won't believe,
and forever you'll never understand..

There's always a first time for everything..
So, in the other time..
It'll replay again and you know what I mean today..

Goodnight readers~
Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get..

“The main thing is to care. Care very hard, even if it is only a game you are playing.”
- unknown author

Care?
Have you ever put too much care on something?
well, when you know you shouldn't?
Maybe i do, but i don't know if you do so.. :)
It's not a bad thing anyway..

God give us 86,400 seconds in a day, have we used it well?
Think about ourselves..
Care about ourselves..
and use the other seconds to care about other people you love..
and it'll always worth..

Live your life,
and make every single thing in your every single day worth your every single second.. :)

Happy sunday~

Well, i've been absent for a few days..
hahahaha..
cause i'm having fun out there with friends of mine :)

today's quote for you readers :
"Let's try to remember that love means keeping in touch with each other's thoughts and feelings...listening, not just to words, but to the emotions behind them...seeing, not just the smiles and frowns, but the hurts and pleasures that causes them."
-unknown

This is the one that caught my attention today..
I've read my whole quotes list and found this one.. :)

If it's love, it remains the same in good and bad times..

Have a great weekend readers ;)

Hello readers..
Is it nice to be a secret readers? :)
Hope so~

"You talk too much, you laugh too loud, that's the price of love."
- Brian Ferry

Something like this..
"You make my heart skip every other beat. You make my cheeks blush whenever you smile at me. You make me laugh just by saying the little things. So may say that this is just a little crush, but in my eyes, it’s a beautiful thing."
It must be good thing right?
Hope you feel that way sooner or later..
Never be out of love, cause it's just wonderful ;)

They call it, We call it, You call it, I call it love..

*inpired by some unknown quotes and lionel richie's song..

“The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.”
- Richard Bach

I got a question..
Who else you can trust if you keep lying to yourself?
You may lie the whole world, but the loudest lie is the lie you told to yourself..

Well, maybe sometimes we don't know if we are lying to ourselves..
best thing i can suggest : open your heart..
Feel what you really want to feel and don't try to stop that.
by the time you are afraid, that's when you lie to yourself..
Can you living in a lie in your whole life?
Yes, you can.. but you'll suffer for the rest of your life..

Try to face reality..
Skip the lying parts, and see what happens :)
If you keep lying and try not to admit the real condition..
you'll never know the real result, the way the things should be,
and the way everything means to be..

There's no lie for good.
Even, a half-truth is a whole lie.
If you still can't be honest to others..
At least, be honest to yourself.. :)

p.s : I've made some changes..
The Live Traffic Feed has gone, so you're all secret readers.. lol
Enjoy reading and leave some comment in my chatbox if you like to..

“We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance.”
- Harrison Ford

Does everyone deserve a second chance?
well, probably..

There might be a second chance for you to start all over again, to fix again, to love again, to learn again, to understand more, and finally to be better than before..
For me, that's all the second chance worth for :)
Will it be another chance if you fail it once again? ~Hope so..
the best we can do is to take the chances without knowing whether there'll be another one or not..
Make today as memorable as yesterday but less than tomorrow.. :D

what if it's my feeling that you can't see?
I guess light isn't enough to show you.. ;)
Follow the path..

Just like a sentence from a song's lyrics..
我的感覺 妳已聽不見

Goodnight..
Wonderful dreams, but worse than reality..^^

"When I'm with you I have fun; when I'm with you I forget all that's bad.
When I'm with you nothing else seems to exist; when I'm with you I feel loved...
And it scares me."
- Unknown Author

Ever feel this way?
If you do, or you did ever..
Be glad, cause it means you're normal :)

Happy wednesday readers(!)

" You can't express every feeling that you have every moment that you have them."
~ When Harry Met Sally

In a certain circumstances this is true..
I said so, cause you just don't know it.

When you're in love, there's no way to mention it..
There'll be no question you'll ask..
There'll be no "but" in your statement..
All you need is just that someone,more than enough..
You'll never ask them to love you back or anything..
And it never goes to a wrong person..
Wrong timing or condition might happen,
but you won't really care..
You just love.. :)

You won't realize if you're in love when you really do.
By the time you're in love, only others can see it..

Once again, love never fails ^^

"What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

And it shall never be forgotten :)
Can't promise you much, but this is the one that i can promise..
all we've been through is what our love can actually do..
Never try to find another,
cause there might be another person, but neither another you or me..

well, if someone doesn't love you today..
probably you know he loved you yesterday..
and no one knows whether he will love you in the future.. :)

Just know that, love never fails..

Have a great night readers~

Thank you :)

Thank you,
for loving me..
for hearing my thoughts..
for standing by my side..
for being such a good friend..
for making me smile..
for telling me jokes when i don't have any reason to smile..
for being my brother, which i never had..
for caring me as my sister, which i also never had..
for always being by my side when i needed someone the most..
for crying together with me..
for smiling, and laughing together with me..
for lighten up my day..
for keeping me as a something in your heart..
for letting me have those kind of feelings..
for sharing with me..
for filling up my life..
for the laughter that you bring, and the tears that you wipe out..
for everything we've been through..
for so many things that i can't mention the whole list.. :D

Thank you for doing all these things to me, or even if you don't anymore..
At least, you had ever feel those things and treat me that way..
I'll keep those moment deep in my mind..
and you shall never be forgotten..

Thank you everyone..
It's dedicated to all my precious person.. :)
I really thank God that in this life, i know a person like you..
For my mom, dad, auntie, my friends, my ex, and some people out there..
I'm glad to know you, and i thought i should have sometime to thank you..

Lots of love from me, Debby~~

Do you feel like you're fail at something today?
If you do so..
Get up, you're really fail when you stop trying..
Then start to open up your eyes..
See your surroundings..
When you're down, there might be someone who actually can make you smile.
When you're crying, there might be someone who actually want to cheer you up..
and when you smile, show them the best smile you could ever had :)
and that's the way you thank those people..
Bad things are not always bad as they look like..
Cheers everyone~~

Have a great saturday night readers..

p.s : I wish there comes a day when you're the reason for my big smile.. lol

“The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once.”
-Albert Einstein

I agree with this statement..
well, good things and bad things can happen at once right?
So, life's like a roller coaster..
up and down..
up again, down again at the other time..
enjoy each moment.. :)
that's what i'm doing now..
cause maybe i'm tired of blaming my surrounding like time, situation or anything..
and believe that, everything happens for a reason..

Have a goodnight readers :)

Finally...
My blog skin is changed..
I made the header by myself :)
I like brown recently, that's why i made it in brown..
hope you enjoy this little touch, readers.. LOL

Goodnight everyone :)

Ahoyyy~

There's nothing i would like to say today..
too tiredd -_-"
i've been collecting each stuff that i want to put in my self-made wallpaper but my photoshop is crashed.. *poor me
so i can do nothing with those things :(

ahh, again..
there's something on my mind..
i didn't tell my mom actually, but she knew it..
And she gave me a direct answer just like what i've been thinking before.. -__-"
*door closed again i think..

well, skip,skip, skip..

and Good afternoon readers..
Today's supply for you, here you go.. ^^

“Yesterday is a canceled check; tomorrow is a promissory note; today is the only cash you have - so spend it wisely”
-Kay Lyons

what a saying, huh?
I like this quote so much.. :)

hmm,Enjoy today everyone....
cya, still got so many things to do..

Do you think so?
I hope it's not really true..
cause maybe time will take something away, but not everything like memories within us.. :)

“Time is free, but it's priceless.
You can't own it, but you can use it.
You can't keep it, but you can spend it.
Once you've lost it you can never get it back.”
-Harvey MacKay

But maybe i need more time..
i'm not prepared well enough,
but those day surely will come along..
Thanks for giving me hope that i can get through this feeling someday :)

I haven't touch my blog for so long.. -_-"
hahahaha.. but here i come back :D

“You've got to be very careful if you don't know where you're going, because you might not get there.”
- Yogi Berra

Being a proaction person is an advantages :) (* got it from my IELTS book.. LOL)

Enjoy your day mates~

Are you having a happy sunday ? :)
cause i did..
Thanks for those who cheered up my day..



“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
(Jeremiah 29:11)

My friend told me about this bible quote, thanks to her.

I found this adorable pictures from deviantart.com
by ~D_a_vis.

Both of them look cute :D

today's words :
“Love is more than a noun -- it is a verb; it is more than a feeling -- it is caring, sharing, helping, sacrificing.”
-William Arthur Ward

I was tagged >.<

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage = water
2. Last phone call = vivi pocky
3. Last text message = fransisca
4. Last song you listened to = falling in love at a coffee shop.. :D
5. Last time you cried = well, i forgot.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice = kind of..
7. Been cheated on = i won't count it that way :)
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = never, i kissed the guy that i love.. remember i'm not irish :P
9. Lost someone special = kind of, but not really.
10. Been depressed = sure, don't you ever?
11. Been drunk and threw up = never.. :)

FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. red
13. blue
14. white

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = yepp
16. Fallen out of love = nope, always in love so far :P
17. Laughed until you cried = no, i laughed and cried. both in a same time. lol

18. Met someone who changed you = i met him at 2008
19. Found out who your true friends were = yes, hopefully.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = kind of..
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = yess.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = 50%
23. How many kids do you want to have = 2 :)
24. Do you have any pets = no, but i wish i have..
25. Do you want to change your name = never.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = held a party.
27. What time did you wake up today = 06.00.. it's crazy -_-"
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = talking on phone.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = oh, i better keep it for myself :P
30. Last time you saw your Mother = just now
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?= nothing, i'm meant to be this way.. no regret at all :)
32. What are you listening to right now = The God i know :)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = if you consider it as a nickname, i ever :)
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = none.
35. Most visited webpage = fb, blogspot, twitter, deviantart, photobucket, others :)
36. Whats your real name = Debby Devina
37. Nicknames = DD, Deb, Piton, DO, Debay, Kucing, lot lot lot..
38. Relationship Status = single fighter :D

39. Zodiac sign = Sagittarius
40. Male or female? = Female
41. Elementary? = BM3
42. Middle School = St. Thomas 1
43. High School/College = St.thomas 1
44. Hair colour = black
45. Long or short = pretty long maybe
46. Height = 165++
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = it's more than just a crush
48: What do you like about yourself? = cause it's me
49. Piercings = used to have 6
50. Tattoos = none
51. Righty or lefty = righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = never
53. First piercing = junior high
54. First best friend = since i'm in primary
55. First sport you joined = swimming
56. First vacation = malaysia
58. First pair of trainers = forgot

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = nope
60. Drinking = nope
61. I'm about to = blogging
62. Listening to = xin tiao :)
63. Waiting for = again, i'd better keep it for myself :)

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids= later
65. Get Married= sure
66. Career = depends :)

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = eyes
68. Hugs or kisses? = can i have both? :)
69. Shorter or taller? = taller
70. Older or Younger? = prefer older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous ? = not going to tell you anyway
72. Nice stomach or nice arms? = i want both :D
73. Sensitive or loud ? = in the middle
74. Hook-up or relationship? = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? = trouble maker?

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? = i'm not irish, so the answer is no :P
77. Drank hard liquor? = not really hard, i wasn't drunk at all..
78. Lost glasses/contacts? = i don't use those things
79. Sex on first date? = never think about it
80. Broken someone's heart? = don't think so, but maybe yes -_-"
81. Had your own heart broken? = already fixed actually :D
82. Been arrested? = nope
83. Turned someone down? = no idea
84. Cried when someone died? = yeppp :(
85. Lied to your bestfriend? = white lies

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself? = kind of
87. Miracles? = sometimes
88. Love at first sight? = this's unreal, it musn't be love
89. Heaven? = yepp
90. Santa Claus?= yep, still do :)
91. Kiss on the first date?= nope
92. Angels? = maybe

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? = never
95. Did you sing today? = yepp
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = no
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = when i was a child :D
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = the day you went away :)
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = no, if there is someone who willing to catch my fall
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = almost true i think :)

I'm going to spill something out from my mind..

Well,I hate that..
1. I don't like you, cause i'm sure i love you.
2. I never wish to spend a day with you, but a lifetime.
3. I never miss you that much cause i always keep you inside me.
4. I never wish i were anyone else, cause no one else will feel the same way like i do to you.
5. I won't just love you till i can let you go, but I'll always love you till you let me go.
6. I can tell you no answer if you ask me why i love you.
7. I feel that you're near even when we are so far away.
8. There's no something that reminds me of you but almost everything.
9. I can never really say goodbye but see you again.
10. Mostly i hate that this is all true and I don't hate it at all.

That's 10 ten thing i hate about me.. :)
My heart was speaking..lol

"when your heart speaks, take a good notes."
- Anonymous

Enough for today..
I've put a big smile on my face.. :D
you'd better do it too..
Today's sunshine is really great, and cheers everyone..
Sunlight is good for your teeth. .lol

oops(!)
i've changed my playlist..
consider these songs as my all time favourite..
it takes me back to where i used to be, kind of flashbak-ing :D
enjoyyy..
See you~

Main actor always survive in his own movies..
So we do.. in our own life :)

“No one cares how much you know, until they know how much you care”
-Don Swartz

Well, i care..
That much, 'till there's no way to express it :)

Happy Sunday people.. :D

"Faith, It's not believing that God can, but it's knowing that He will.. "
- unknown Author

I strangely feel something..
Somehow i feel like the speaker in my church know what's in my heart and what's in my mind..
He answered every single question that popped out from my heart..
i spoke alone in my heart and when i heard him, I feel like he was telling me the answer..
Not the one that i wanted to hear, but the best i should ever heard.. :)

"What we see is what we get", he said.
But what we see is not always the good things..
or maybe it looks good but it's not actually as good as its appearance..
so he suggested us to see with not only our eyes, but our heart..
He adores Helen Keller so much.. :)
and he told us some of helen's quotes like ..

"The poorest men are those who got eyes but they can't see."

"When we do the best that we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another."

something sounds like that ^^

and i searched for her other quotes..
This is the one i like best..
"We could never learn to be brave and patient, if there were only joy in the world."

When i read all her quotes, i found out that she is such an inspirational woman..

I wanna tell you something..
All of us, we had our good and bad times.
It was all blessed by God, and will always be blessed.. :)
God leads you to his path that he had arranged for you..
Some of the path may be smooth, rocky, or anything..
But yet he will never leave you alone..

when you feel so far away from God -- Who moves?

God will never move, He stand still.. :)

When no one cares, He cares..
When no one loves you, He loves you..
When no one stand with you, He's always be by your side..
When no one knows what's within your heart, He knows what's in your deppest heart..
When you pray, He'll answer..
When you fall, He raises you up..
When you are in wrong direction, He shows you the path for you to follow..
When you're stuck in somewhere, He'll bring you out..
When you miss Him, He'll greet you and tell you how much He loves you..
When you've lost your faith, remember God gives you another chance to try..
When you find Him, You'll see he's not so far from you.. :)

And i believe..
God won't give what you want, he gives you what you really need..
He promises you the best one..
If he doesn't give it to you right away,
means he asks you to wait and preparing something much better than you ask him to.. :)

Have a good night everyone..
Pray before you go to bed and hope for better tomorrow ^^
God bless us..

People change..
So do i..
And i guess it won't be that easy this time..
I have my heart, even it's unbreakable it's still mine and i have to take a good care of it..

"Love is not to be shared between two people. One is severely hurt and the other is content. It NEVER satisfies both."
- unknown author

A little silly thing happened around here :D
well, i called it silly..
and you know it..

Maybe you know everything i do..
but you don't have any idea what's really happening here..
I don't say that i'm right, i might be wrong..
but i follow my own heart..
and i trust my own feelings..
so i guess, i know what's really happening..

"Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first.
Ask question, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart."
- unknown author

:D
I really don't mind..
Maybe i got an unbreakable heart..lol
Can you see what kind of love that i have? cause i don't know..

Have a nice day everyone..

Pictures taken from devianart.com by cerenimo with the title
"Waiting and still waiting for you"

"I'm waiting for you while living in my dreamland, turn on the alarm when you've got here.."
-Debby Devina

:D
Finally, i made myself a quote.. lol

i just want someone to know, i trust you with a whole me :)

i found the picture i arranged few months ago..
almost half year maybe, i forgot..
here it is..



If you can't read what is written there..
it is..
- Having onto every words you say..
- Having someone to share your life with..
- Waiting for you to return..
- Having someone to protect you..
- Knowing that you never be by yourself..
- Sharing stories till you tire..
- Togetherness forever..

That what love feels.. ;)

Here are some of my vacation pictures ^^

@ Garuda Wisnu Kencana




Tanah Lot Sunset


@ Bebek Bengil


One of my favourite creature


These are some of the pictures.. :)
enjoy^^

well, i guess i fear so many things...
i fear that maybe i put so much hope for something..
like to have something i might not deserve.. :|

but i found this quote
"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood."
- Marie Curie

Maybe this one may help :)
These are all the things we do..
we love, we hope, we try, we hurt,we fail, we cry..
We are all not so different anyway.. ^^

Happy Wednesday readers~

"Don't be afraid to feel as angry or as loving as you can, because when you feel nothing, it's just death."
--Lena Horne

I'm out of words...

:)
Can't get you out of my mind...

Have a nice day~~

Good evening readers!!! :D

I've deleted something on my previous post..
Just don't want to make things worse by stupid statement from me :)
I guess everyone got an emotion, i'm just expressing mine..
Sorry if i bother..
I can hardly thinking last night..
well, finally everything's okay..
maybe better or not at all..
I don't know :)

...

Sorry my bad..

Hmm,..

suddenly,
I remember when i used to send someone quotes or sayings everyday.. LOL
I miss those time..
But i'm okay with everything that happens recently..
Thank you for lighten up my day and night..
I wish we could stay in anytime, as long as we're together..
Looking backward or forward.. i do really hope i meet you somewhere..
Cause i can't stop the time, i really wish God could play it once again for me..
or maybe you can stay..
right here, right now..
i'll be so glad :D

I never found that i'm waiting for nothing,
cause i always know..i'm waiting for you.. :)

quote for today :

"Dont say we aren't right for each other, the way i see it is.. we aren't right for anyone else.."
--the cutting edge

I found this quote sounds so sweet..
someday i'll find out, if this quote will suit us or not ;)
I'm no longer hiding..
You know what i feel..

Have a goodnight everyone..
I keep wishing someone " A Very very big Goodluck!!! "

Happy Sunday everyone!!
Picture above is a saying for today ^^

Today was not really my day, but i'm fine..
They cheer me up today..
Two of my friends, friends that i met at church and someone :)
I laughed a lot today, smile a lot, and cry a little ^^

To one of my friends, so sorry for the mistake i've done..
I just want you to know i really mean my sorry..
I really hope this simple thing can't ruin our friendship.. :)

well,now i believe that in the end what’s meant to be will always find a way..
i don't mind whatever comes along..^^

hmm, i'll recommend you a song..
i love this song so much
The God I know by City Harvest Church ^^
so easy listening and ease your feelings.. enjoyyy~

now it's late already..
goodnight readerssss!!!

I found these videos on youtube..
there are so many expression of Lee min ho here.. LOL
enjoy..

Etude house



Dunkin Donuts



Pepsi NEX



Just for refreshing ^^

Have a nice day everyone..

For someone out there, " Did i make a real big mistake?"
Just don't get it anyway.. T.T

I've known this song since long time ago,
but suddenly this song stucks on my mind : New radicals - someday we'll know..
here, i share you the lyrics.. :)

90 miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
I need an answer
Two years later, you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Emilia Earhart
Who holds the stars up in the sky ?
Is true love once in a lifetime ?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry ?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis
Or what the wind says when she cries
I'm speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time tonight

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
I watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me?

P.S : seeing you in February was great
cliches eventually all come true "time heals all
wounds" I went to get us our ninth drink
and you ran out the door with another guy
I woke up on the floor with my shoes on
A smile on my face and I don't even care..

Lalalalalaa... This song keep repeating in my mind.. LOL

i still can't sleep even it's already midnight..
so, i'll write something.. ^^

quotes for this moment :
"Never say goodbye when you still want to try.
Never give up when you still feel you can take it.
Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go."
~ Dons ~

I think this is a good advice for me...
and maybe suits for you too :)

and i'm feeling something right now..
i'm happy, don't know why..
but still i feel little bit miserable..
the difference is, i can fight those miserable feelings right now..
maybe i'm getting stronger..LOL

last but not least..
I'm wishing someone out there.. " a very very big goodluck" !!!! :D

"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going."
- Practical Magic

I'll repeat the same question, "have you ever been so deeply in love?"
or maybe we can make it more simple, " what does it feel to be so in love?"

the answer should be good to hear, i guess so.. :)

Today, i write something which is not experienced by me..
but this is what i saw..
being in love is such a wonderful feelings..
well, i miss having those kind of feelings.. (Oopss!)

wanna tell you my opinion so you can catch the disease.. LOL
here :
first , you can't sleep cause reality is better than your dreams..
second, you need no reason to smile
last, you don't have a time to ask yourself whether you are in love or not..

Love is a mental disease anyway..

and I found this somewhere,..
"It doesn't take a reason to love someone,but it does to like someone.
You don't love someone because you want to, you love someone because you are destined too.
It's because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason,
but you always come up with the answer, No reason!"

Be happy, for those who are in love :)
happy for you ^^

Yes..
I'm annoying..

I never wish i was her..
i just wondering why.. :)
But then i figure it out..
maybe you thought i always keep thinking of myself..
If i did so, i think i won't be like what i am today..

Maybe I'm a trouble maker..
You don't tell me directly what you want to say,
that's why i keep guessing and i spill out everything that passed on my mind..
and you got angry?
So sorry, my bad.. :(

I never reply what you've said..
all i said is not what you've told me..
all i did is telling you what i feel, that's not my negative opinion about you..
but i'm telling you what i'm afraid of..
till today, you never really want to understand what's my fear..
you thought i'm judging you..
I used to be afraid of losing you..
but today i realize, you'll feel better if i don't want you that much.. :)

maybe you would say i'm too sensitive..
your words keep spinning in my mind, and i hate those words..
It's not about anyone else..
It's about me or it's about you..
well, it's about me..

I've tried to be strong..
I've tried to stand strong in my place so i don't have to interrupt you..
I've loved you from such a long distance, stop showing my feelings and pass a day without knowing what i really feel.
but after all my effort, you give me some hope..
which brings me back to you..
and i can't deny, how far i've run.. there's always a way and it always backs to you..
but when i try to hope again, i find nothing to hold on to..
and i'm to afraid that my nightmares will come true..
maybe i need someone to guide me :)

what i feel today might be different with what i'll feel tomorrow..
I keep talking cause i want you to know what i feel..
I think u're the only person to whom i can always express my feeling.. ( maybe i feel too comfort, my bad again )
to choose you as my best bestfriend is really not a bad idea.. ^^

and you should know, when i said "sorry"..
i really mean it, even if i can't add words that you wish to hear :)
I am me, you know i can never do that..
when i say anything, i always mean it..
including when i say i still love you.

well, i got to go..
almost forget, quote for you today :

"Remember, if you’re headed in the wrong direction, God allows U-turns! "
~Allison Gappa Bottke

Have a great day!!

YAY!
i woke up early this morning.. LOL

yesterday i have so much fun
which means a lot to me.. :D
we laughed a lot..
maybe we were screaming too..
we took tons of pictures..
and i love those things : smile, laugh, scream, tell jokes, and take pictures for sure ^^

everything looks good :)
but i can't sleep well last night..
something keep running on my mind..
too afraid of making mistake i can't fix T.T

Just skip that part,
I got a quotes for you today, i got it from wordboner..
here it is :

"Everything you have today may be someone else's tomorrow.."

so, never let go the chances you've got^^

goodnight everyone!!
sleep tight~

I'm HOME !!!

I really miss my mom and my home..
nothing's better than this..
and i'm back on the track, updating my blog :D
but so sorry i can't upload my holiday's pics..
to tired for that..
but it'll be soon uploaded ^^

It's been so long that i haven't updated my blog..
but i still don't have some important things to write here..
cause i'm having a random feeling right now..

everytime i start to sit in front of my pc..
i'll start to have those kind of feeling..
almost everything is about him..
i thought it was about him, but it's still about him now.
somehow, i know my position..
everything about him is no longer about me.. :)
wondering if he ever miss me like i do..
well, i'll be happy for him..

(heyy, you know that..)
i'll be happy that you found your happiness^^

and, do you realize the bear change the songs?
i really love the first track.. thanks for telling me about it..
enjoy..
here's the lyrics and the translation of the song in english..

Dodeche ar suga obso namjadurui maum
wonhar ten onjego da juni ije tonande
ironjog choumirago nonun thugbyorhadanun
gu marur midosso negen hengbogiosso
it's impossible to understand what's going through a guy's heart
you told me that you wanted me and no that i've given you everything, you tell me you're leaving
you told me that it was the first time you felt this way, and said that i was special
i believed you and it was my happiness

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyoda go
nunchiga obnun nan nur bochegiman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
you should have told me that your feelings had faded
i had no idea and i continued to depend on you
Although i say i hate you now , i'll be missing you
because i'm a girl, to whom love is everything

modungor swibge da jumyon gumbang shirhjungnenunge
namjara durosso thollin mar gathjin anha
dashinun sogji anhuri maum mogo bojiman
todashi sarange munojinunge yoja ya
they say that when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored
and now i know that's the truth
and although i tell myself i'll never be tricked again
i fall in love, and my heart is broken again

marur haji guresso nega shirhojyodago
nunchiga obnun nan nur boche giman hesso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
you should have told me that your feelings had faded
i had no idea and i continued to depend on you
Although i say i hate you now , i'll be missing you
because i'm a girl, to whom love is everything

[narration]
Onur urin heojyosso budi hengbogharago
noboda johun sarammannagir barandago
nodo darun namjarang togathe nar saranghanda go marhanten onjego
sorjighi na nega jar doenungo shirho
naboda yepun yoja manna hengboghage jar sarmyon otohge
guroda nar jongmar ijoborimyon otohge
nan irohge himdunde himduro juggenunde
ajigdo nor nomu saranghanunde
Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you

sarangur wihesoramyon modun da har su inun
yojaui chaghan bonnungur iyong hajinun marajwo
hanyojaro theona sarangbadgo sanunge
irohge himdurgo oryourjur mollasso
norur yoghamyonsodo manhi guriurgoya
sarangi jonbuin nanun yojainika
please don't break the hearts of girls who'll do anything for love
i didn't know that living this life while being loved would be so hard
Although i say i hate you now , i'll be missing you
because i'm a girl, to whom love is everything..

this song really suits me...

well..
Have a good night everyone!! (or maybe a nice day)
let's continue the real stories tomorrow.. LOL

goodluck for someone out there^^

lots of love from me =D

I MISS BLOGGING SO MUCH~

Today's saying for you :D



yay!
me and my friends go to internet cafe this evening..
so, finally i can write something here..
cause few days ago, i only checked my facebook through mobile phone and i cant post any updates on my blog..

well, i'm having a great vacation.. ^^

full stories will be updated soon when i'm back..

i miss my home so much..
i've never been away from my mom for so long..
miss her >.<

and to someone out there..
i love the song you gave to me..
i've never heard it before..
when i listen to it, it always remind me of you :)

i heard a song yesterday, and i love the lyrics..
so, i wanna share it with you..
here you go..^^

"I know you need to go
But before you do I want you to know, that I

Wish you the best
And I wish you nothing less
Than every thing you've ever dreamed of
And I hope that you find love along the way
But most of all
I wish you'd stay

I know that you've done some changin'
And I know there's no changin' your mind
And yes I know
We've been through this a thousand times

I'm sorry for still holdin' on
I'll try to let go and I'll try to be strong, and I'll

Wish you the best
And I wish you nothing less
Than every thing you've ever dreamed of
And I hope that you find love along the way
But most of all
I wish you'd stay.."
Brad Paisley - I wish you'd stay

well, i miss so many things..
but i'm having great days anyway..
wish you too :)

Have a Nice day everyone!!

I found some pictures, and i'll share it with you :)










those pics contain saying too in it :)
and i think it's true..
enjoy it as today quotes^^

AND, well..
it's 27th May..
and tomorrow me and my friends will start our vacation..
I'll be away for 16 days..
i think, i will miss so many things.. LOL

I will miss
my mom..
my family..
my friends right here..
my online friends..
my facebook and my blog for sure.. hahaha

but i bet, there'll be so much fun ^^
i'll forget some problem for a while and enjoy the breeze from the ocean.. :D
i'll love it so much..

this blog won't be dead..
just a lil bit boring..
cause i can't do any update for more than two weeks..
but i'll be back with a lot of stories.. :D

Bali, here we come (!)

See you soon readers :)

I smile a lot today, right ?
Don't you think so? * the one who saw my smile.. LOL

I said to myself and to you, "Every stories got good and bad things in it."
so, Cheer up (!) :D

and here we go, quotes for today is :

“To live in this world, you must be able to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go, let it go.”
- Mary Oliver

well, never try to make someone stay if she/he doesn't willing to stay.
but don't ever try to stop them if they change their mind. ^^
all you can do is hoping for the best..
there will be no longer best for both of you..
but best for him/her and best for you :)

"life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. so love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. if you get a chance, take it. if it changes your life, let it. nobody said it'd be easy. they just promised it'd be worth it."

God bless all of us ^^
have a wonderful day everyone (!)

I've mentioned this korean drama before : Boys before flowers.. LOL
after searching..
i decided to post some pics from the drama..
here they are



and i like Lee Min Ho the most..

here are some of my favourite pics of him :D.. enjoy(!)






































For the soundtrack, i love to hear these:

Ashily - Lucky
SS501 - Because I'm stupid

try it :)

last but not least, there are also some quotes from the drama :

“Just once…tell me that you like me. Then all of this will be over.” – Jun Pyo

“You do this every time. Whenever I try to get closer, you trample my heart like it’s nothing. Do I still mean so little to you?” – Jun Pyo

Goo Jun Pyo looks akward but he's sweet inside.. kinda romantic person.. LOL

As day goes by,
it's getting more clearly that everything happens in our life never out of God's plans.
this afternoon, i bring myself in front of Him.
let Him ease my hard feelings inside me.
i really want to release it.
so there'll be nothing but happiness and love.. :)

hoping that i can bring happiness to people surrounding me.
and love like I've never been hurt ^^

those picture tells you about it..
and i got a quote :

"God understands our prayers even when we can't find the words to say them."
~Author Unknown

Keep praying, in your good and bad times :)

I keep one thing in my mind : If God brings you to it, He'll bring you through it.

I found this picture while i was browsing yesterday..

As the website said, this is a tagline from a movie..
i don't sure from what movie this sentence came from..
but i like it.. :)

just like a quote which sounds like this :
You never know what you have until you lose it and once you lose it, you can never get it back.
- unknown

and this one
Goodbye's make you think. They make you realize what you've had and what you've lost, and what you've taken for granted.
-unknown

Don't you agree with the author?
I totally agree :D

wishes have the nasty habit of coming true when you stop wishing

Don't you think so?

I think it's true.. :)

*p.s : this is the first time i post a picture.. LOL

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
-Maya Angelou

Sorry..

as you said..
yes i did, i thought i'm the only one who has feelings..
and i'm the only one who was hurt..
I admit it..

i really feel guilty.
right here, hoping that i could run as far as i want.
not to avoid you, but to keep myself for not being such a trouble for you..
maybe we just need sometime.. :)
hope everything will be fine.
it may not be as good as i want it to be..
but at least, it can be a light in the dark..
I'll try to wait like i can wait forever.

I don't know what quote suits right now..
hahaha..
iI've been searching for hours in my collection..
till i found this one..

"Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together."
~ unknown author

Don't you agree?
while part of me ask me to let go, and the other half ask me to not give up,
i keep wondering for a while.
and i still haven't got a right answer for myself.
when quotes are such a motivation to ourselves, sometimes just pop up another question on our mind.

"Is it true love or i'm just wasting time?"
i saw this saying at someone's website..
i don't have the answer anyway..
well, "it's like a cut.. it will heal with time but the scars will never fade"

What a prom (!)
so so tiring.. LOL

thanks :)

a simple prom..
yet i'm satisfied enough..
hope my friends feel the same way too..
coz, a huge party is not the point..
but the moment we share ^^

goodnight all~
sleep tight and sweet dream everyone!!

Few days ago, i spent my whole day watching korean drama Boys Before Flowers..
one of the soundtrack caught my attention.
so today, i search for the lyrics and the translation.
suprisingly, the lyric is quite touching..
the title of the song is : Nae Moriga Nabbaso

here's the translation :

because i'm so foolish, i know only you
you who are looking at someone else,
you probably don't know my heart

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you as my tears continue to fall

i'm happy with looking at your back figure
though you still don't know my heart
though at the end, you'll just brush past me

the days that i miss you so much
the days when it's too hard to bear
the words "i love you" are dancing on my lips
once again, alone, crying for you
once again, alone, missing for you
baby, i love you. i'm waiting for you

there is no me in your day,
probably not even in your memories
but i'm looking at only you,
making memories by myself

to me, love is like a beautiful wound
even though i see your pretty smile,
i can't smile with you

bye bye, never say goodbye
though i can't hold onto you
i need you, i can't say anything else
i want you, i'll wish and wish again

* little bit drama syndrome for this week ;)

Today, I'm so so so so happy.
hope it would last little bit longer..
i look like a crazy girl for smiling too often..
i don't know much, but i know i'm happy =)

smile everyone (!)
**sunshine is good for our teeth so does the moonlight

And i found this quote..
look like a question, but i just like it..

"If I love you, what business is it of yours?"
~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

That's it for tonight..
have a good sleep all :)

Yesterday i got problem with my internet connection..
that's why i posted nothing in my blog.
and now here i am with another quote :)
hope this quote is inspirational enough for us.

Here you go...

Men are disturbed not by the things that happen,
But by their opinion of the things that happen.
~ Epictetus ~

Therefore, we are advised not to judge from what we see..
or what we hear..
notably for what we don't see with our own eyes
and what we don't hear from our own ears.
Even when we are, let's try to think positively.. =)
Who knows this way of thinking may help..
cause, sometimes i feel..
my thought is the main reason for me in doing things.
things that may bring out solution or problem instead.

Have a good night everybodyy(!)
or maybe it's morning there : Good morning too(!)

lots of love from me :)

1. Real name : Debby Devina
2. Nick name : DD, Deb, Debay, Piton, Kucing, and now lebayy.. LOL
3. Age : 17
4. Height : about 165 cm :)
5. Weight : about 48kg
6. Spec or contact lens : none
7. Horoscope : Sagittarius
8. Male or Female : Female
9. Tv or games : Games
10. Primary school : Budi Murni 3
11. Secondary school : St.Thomas 1
12. Poly or Jc : none
13. University : wait and see
14. Hair Colour : Black
15. Long or short hair : Pretty long i think
16. Loud or quiet : In the middle :)
17. Sweats or jeans : Tees and short pants
18. Phone or camera : both
19. Health freak : not really
20. Drink or smoke : none is better, but i hate smoke.
21. Have a crush on someone? : well,still my ex..
22. Eat or drink : both, when i'm hungry
23. Piercings : 4 in my ears
24. Tattoos : not yet..
25. social or anti-social : not sure
26. First relationship : 4 years ago
27. First bestfriend : in primary
...........
some questions are missing
.................
48. wealthy or happiness : A hard question..LOL
49. Want to get married : sure
50. want kids : yepp
51. Careers in my mind : a good one or housewife ;P
52. fight before : yepp
53. most regret of : well, this is quite private
54. Talented in : u think?
55. Weak in ? : controlling emotions
56. Romantic or spontaneous ? : i think I'm romantic..haha
57. Lip or eyes ? : eyes, windows to your soul ;)
58. Nice stomach or nice arms ? : Nice stomach
59. Shorter or Taller ? : Taller
60. Protective or Caring : sometimes i'm both
61. Hook-up or Relationships : Relationships
62. Troublemaker or hesitant : Troublemaker, as always
63. Lost glasses or contacts : none
64. Ran away from home : ever think of it when i was so stupid.. LOL
65. Held a gun/knife for self defense : gunnn
66. Killed somebody : well, it's prohibited
67. Broken someone's heart : two ways
68. Been arrested : nope
69. Cried when someone died : surely i do
70. Missed someone a lot a lot : hell yess
71. Believe in Yourself : sure
72. Believe in Miracles : yeppp
73. Love at first sight : it's only in theory
74. Heaven or Hell : heaven on earth..hahaha
75. Santa Claus : i love him!1 :)
76. Cartoon or anime : both
77. Tooth Fairy : i used to believe her
78. Kiss in the first date : nope.
79. Afraid of death : not really
80. Handsome or cute : nice guy
81. Pretty or cute : hmm, depends
82. Reality or dream : reality may hurt, but you cant dream all the time
83. Is there a person you want to be with now ? : yeaaa..
84. Are you seriously happy with what you're in life now ? : yes, i am
85. Do you believe in fate ? : yaa
86. Do you believe in everlasting love ? : can we really say forever? my forever have just gone ;)
87. Do you believe in god ? : YES
88. How often do you lie ? : hmmm
89. Do you respect elders ? : ya, esp my mom
90. Are you a good kid ? : probably yes.haha
91. Do you like your family ? : sure
92. Do you like your friends ? : LOVE
93. Are you greedy ? : sometimes
94. What do you want now ? : something good for both of us
95. What will you wish for ? : better tomorrow
96. A truth to first person ? : God
97. A truth to second person ? : myself
98. A truth to third person ? : my mom
99. Do you even trust yourself ? : yepp
100 .post as 100th truth tag 10 person

* i'm not going to tag anyone.. hahaha
just for fun ;)

what a fine sunday afternoon..
yay! i woke up early today.. 9.00 am.. LOL
and then i accompanied my mom to a church's celebration as she was invited to go there..

today's saying:

"Look to this day, for it is life, the very life of life.
In its brief course lie all the realities and verities of existence.
The bliss of growth, the splendor of action, the glory of power.
And yesterday is but a dream, and tomorrow is only a vision.
But today - well lived - makes every yesterday
a dream of happiness,
and every tomorrow a vision of hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day."
~ Sanskrit proverb ~

well, after the church celebration..
i feel much better..
my feelings get better everyday, and it's really good for me..
and i keep in my mind..
God always plan the best thing for us.
and sometimes He let us learn from our mistakes.
and lead us back to His way.. :)
so, everything happens to me..
I believe it's for my own good..
and you too..
He won't let us walk alone,
all He does is to remind us that He'll always there for us..
God bless us.. ^^
Thanks for today, and hope for better tomorrow.
may God lead my way and your way.
If He decides to let us meet each other once again.
I'll take the chances.. ;)

Happy weekend everyone (!)

oh well, yesterday was so tiring..
actually, i'm really tired right now..
i need to take a rest soon.. hahahaha..
but i really want to update my blog, so here i am :)

i got a bunch of quotes in my collection,
and now i pick some of them to share with you.
my favourite one for sure.
some of them are lyrics.

here they are :

"I'm willing to let you go, if that's what can bring you back."
- Rufus, Gossip Girl

"Another everything, but it always backs to you."
- OAR

"I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours"
- The Script

"Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone, because sometimes Fate plays a fool on us and we are not meant to be together. But still, there is love between us."
-unknown

"Love is always a good thing no matter how much it hurts. Even after it's over, even through the pain, anyone who has ever really loved will tell you that they never regretted a second of it, no matter how much it hurt in the end. And if you tell me differently, I will tell you that you were not truly in love."
-April Nizlek

"When these days are gone, when all the love we gave to each other slowly fades away, when your beautiful smile is only here as a dream, and when the words 'I love you' are scripts of the past, I will always have the memories that were once moments, and I will always know that no matter what, I got the chance to be loved by you."
~Unknown
*and this is the most favourite one.. :)

i'll update the rest later..
when i feel sad or in love or anything..
i feel good when i read quotes and listening to some songs.
when i start to write this post.
i miss something.
all the songs that i used to play as our soundtrack in the past rewind automatically in my mind.
such as:
our song, lucky, right here waiting, always be my baby, and so on.

the best lyrics you've ever sent to me:

" I wish for a happy ending
why is it I always fail to make it in the end
breaking up now doesn’t matter
just treat it as a short interlude
sometimes there’s a need to put things down
to be able to see the path ahead
there are always some emotions that
can’t be brought away despite letting go
Some unforgettable emotions
I’m very satisfied
even if the tears are threatening to
fall from my eyes
I would hold them back "

today, it sounds so true..
thank you for sending me this lyrics.

everything that remain about you still play itself in my head..
i'm not trying to let it out.
but sometimes it hurts, it left me random feelings which i don't know how to handle.
all i know, sometimes i feel happy that all of them ever happened between us.
sometimes it makes me really wanna get over it.
cause my heart starts to beating faster and finally i can't control it..
i miss you more than i used to, but a question stuck in my head..
do you miss me too like i do?

weew, i can't sleep..
so i get up from my bed after having a phone call with vivi
and start to write something here :)

today's quote:
"It is better to light a candle than curse the darkness."

I'm thankful for everything that has come to my life..
the good and bad ones.
the one that stays until the end or the others those just pass by..
someone who walks in when the rest of the world walks out..
or those who always there..

well, I'm trying to move on..
I'll left every sad quotes behind..
but I'm not trying to forget any single day i spent on him..
just hoping and praying for better tomorrow..
in everything we do, may God lead us :)

finally,
you walk your way, and I'll walk mine..
and we're going to be okay ^^

in everything you do, i still pray for you..
having you as my friend really makes me better..
well,i don't mind seeing you with another one,
as long as she can make you happier than you used to be :)
even my worst dream has come true, i'm okay..

watching you out of my life really doesn't make thing worse..
even better, cause I'm having someone special like you as my friend..
a friend who knows almost everything about me.
like there's no one understand me more than you do.
i'm glad enough :)

when i saw you smiling,
even if it's not for me..
i'm happy for you..
i'm relieved that i don't mess things up anymore..
and you can put smile upon your face..
the best thing about you is your smile.. lol

17 months since my 16th birthday was unforgettable us
right from the start, i knew i'll love you someday..
and now i know, i'd love to have a friend like you dol..... :)

I don't believe my self..
but i don't know why i can believe in you that much..
i heard so many random opinions about you..
but i do still believe in you..

i've tried not to mess up,..
but i'm so sorry if i ruined something..
you may say that i'm not worth enough.
you may say that the trouble was me..
you may say that i'm not worth to be the reason of your broken things.
well, i mean broken friendship..

i don't even know who i should believe..
all i do just now is hearing my mom opinion and try to talk to you..
she believes in you just like i do..
and i thought my mom wouldn't be wrong.
all i can do is, hearing to her advice..
but i never thought that it'll come this way..

sorry, i messed up..
i don't worth as much as your friendship.
so, left me alone..
and i won't mess things up like i used to do in this past few days.

sorry, but i really thank her for being my friends.
sorry, maybe you think i'm so annoying..
i'm happy that you tried to help.
i don't want it to be end like this.
but if we should end like this..
it's all my fault.

sorry...
i know "sorry" doesn't fix things up.
but all i can do is.. apologizing to all of you.. :(

Hmm, now it's 11.39 when i start to write my post..
well, i try not to look sad..
but i can't stay at a same look while it's fake..
i'm extremely sad.. hahahaha..
i feel stupid.

i'm having a phone call with vivi right now while writing my blog..
i feel much better right now.. :)
thanks for someone who support me, and makes me so much better..
and all my friends who really understand me..
especially my mom, the expert..hahahaha..
thanks for those who listening to me every night..
really thanks for hearing my laugh, wrath, and even when i cry..
it's really boring and stressful while you listening people crying on the phone,isn't it?
it was hurt at first..
but i'm relieved now..
when i think deeper, i realize that i'm blessed..
from now on, i'll move foward..
left everything we ever had, and i won't look back.
i won't search any glimpse of you in my past, maybe i'll meet you in the future right, who knows?
coz God have answered my question..
i've been praying for our relationship all this time
and finally He gives me the answer..
that's why i told you that i'm blessed..
I don't mind if we're only friends..
we can still share stories like we used to do..

I know that i should be happy..
and i will for sure..

thank you,
thank you for the love you gave to me..
i know that you don't even care what i write here.
and you don't have to :)
i'm happy knowing that you are.

today's quote :
"To love someone is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and to trust one another. One important thing is to let each other go if you can't do this."

and from now on..
i'll smile with all my heart, and laugh happily..
promise you that there's no fake in me.. :)
and i hope that you'll be happy too..
sorry for all the mistakes that i've done.
i'm happy it was you who love me..
honestly, i still love you..

My friend told me about the saturdays' song
there's a part from the lyrics that i like :

"There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep sayin' yes when my minds sayin no.."

after i read it over again, my friend was right about this song.
it's a random feeling that i can't explain in words..
too complicated to describe..

well, i'm hesitate.
should i really let go?
i've never tried it before..
but someone told me that.. "it's not that you can't, but you never really try."
*See, I really remember what you told me friend..

and wise man says..
"Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult, for strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go."

strangely i feel like there's something unrevealed..
well, i don't know..
is that true or it is just my own feeling?
I'm not blaming anyone and i won't actually.
As i believe, things happen with reason.
so, whatever happens.. i believe it's for good :)
and i'm wishing someone a better life right now.
i'm not going to ask anything.
he must have his own reason for everything.
in the otherside, there are so many things that i don't understand.
I'm too afraid to think.

I do feel regret in some ways..
In something that i done before..
When i play all the memories inside my head..
I keep playing the best times and try to skip the bad ones.
i tried to keep the best things, but i won't erase the bad ones.

im wondering about ur feeling?
Is it really empty? i hope you fill it with joy, at least. :)

right now, my mind is flashback-ing the stories.
when we first met.
when the first time we introduced ourselves to each other.
when we started to be friends.
when i started to realize that one day without you is so plain.
when we started to feel a same way.
when we started to like each other.
when i started to feel that not having you beside me is making me sad.
when we started to be together.
when we spent our every single day together.
when you filled up my day.
when you picked me up from the school for the first time.
when you drove me to school.
when you cared so much that i haven't ate breakfast.
when we woke up early at sunday morning so we can spent more time together for a whole day.
when we argued.
when you tried to make me calm.
when we watch our silly movies together while having meals.
when you were being so nice to my mom.
when you sang me a song.
when i should let you go for the first time for few days.
when i missed you damn much.
when we played our favourite online games together.
when we dated.
when i was so happy when you come back from your trip coz i miss you so.
when you cheered me up.
when i spent my 7 days in a week, and 24 hours in a day with you, including dreaming of you.
when i felt miserable knowing that we should be separated by distance
when we had our last lunch before you go.
when i didn't see you directly anymore but your voice in my ear.
when we try to reduce our longing by phone calls and webcam :)
and
when finally we end up like this.

there are still many things that i remember.
i don't have to remind myself about those things.
i remember it perfectly :)
it was one of the best thing i have ever felt during my life.
that i won't ever feel sorry for.
having you before is like having my friend.
but much more special.
i was holding you from a distance, hoping that you remember that i love you in everything that you do.
i've been waiting like i could really wait forever.
everything....
almost everything was you :)

you and me, it was us..

should i let go?

it's our history, it's our love story,
and I miss how it was before...

"Finally, I see that my happiness doesn't mean having you. My happiness comes from your happiness. And if you can be happy without me, then I can be happy without you"

this is another quote :)

i experienced something this afternoon..
that finally opened up my eyes, my heart, and my brain started to work for sure..
when i really love someone, it's better for me to set him free
than having him beside me but without me inside his heart.
as i said before to him, "truth is much better than lie does"
truth is hurt but don't you think lies is worse than that..
imagine if one day you figure out that all of it was a lie, don't you think you'll be better if you know it sooner?
well, don't do lies :)
since i'll be happy if he's happy..
I don't matter, if he forgets me quickly..
turns me quickly from someone that he loved to someone he used to know.
as long as he take a good care of himself and he can be much happier than before.. :)
i'm no longer as his burden now, YAY! you're single and happy..LOL
sounds cliche, but this is what i feel..
i never thought that i would love someone this way..
but finally, i consider him as a friend of mine..
and keep everything we had before as a memories that
I don't regret a single moment I spent on him..
at my best and my worst.
I don't know how hard it'll be to get over him, but i'll try my best..
Life still goes on :)

If you ever feel a same way too..
or if you are feeling exactly the same thing like i do,
may this little notes cheer you up..
because, there must be someone out there that feels it too..
if you feel broken inside,fix it fast..
Sunshine is good for your teeth, SMILE :)

I found this in my collection..

“I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn't brighten her own.”

Well, i don't really sure if i feel this way too as the author did..
but maybe sometimes i do..
like what i felt yesterday..
when my sorry really ain't enough, and seems like everything i did was so wrong..

do u ever feel this way? :)
this is a nice quote anyway..
it tells me how much you love a person when you really put their happiness above yours..
but, don't let love blind up your eyes..
you should open it up and see,
if your somebody really worth it ^^
so you sacrifice for something not nothing :)

Ahh..
Finally i've almost done..
So far, this is what i can do..

It's really hard to find skin on the web..
So, after i got it..
I added something to it, and deleted some stuffs that i don't need :) 

And here it is..

The header picture was edited by me..
It used to be my friendster profile header..
but i've deleted my friendster few months ago because of facebook syndrome.. LOL
The rest is everything that i got from the web..

Well, i made this blog so i can share something with you..
something like experience, thoughts, sayings, and quotes or maybe just a simple notes..
Because i'm not going to make  you bored with stories about me.. ;)

Enjoy my blog~

Tonight..well, actually it's midnight..
while i was waiting for someone..
finally i decided to make myself a blog.. :)
and it's done..
i made it together with my monkey..
ahhh, i mean vivi ;P
but of course we did it by ourselves on our own pc..hahaha

hmm,
i still don't have things to write here..


goodnight~